The GulfA night before bed, I was reading ‘The word for you today’ and the bible reading for the day was Luke Chapter 16 vs 19 to 32. There were some specific verses that grabbed my attention which were Luke verse 19 – 26. These verses read: 19 “There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day.
20 At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores, 21 and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.
22 “The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried.
23 In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side.
24 So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.
25 “But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony.
26 And besides all this, between us and you a great gulf has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’‘
Verse 26 talks about the gulf. The story went on to describe the space between heaven and hell, which I didn’t quite understand at the time so that night I asked the Holy Spirit to help me understand what I read as I fell asleep.
I found myself on a platform of a train station, waiting for a train. At this point I found myself at different train stations without getting on the train or being on one, I didn’t understand how that happened.
So, when I noticed what was happening I instantly started walking off the platform back to where I came from. I then saw a group of people in white garments which caught my attention, I noticed they were smoking and drinking and that made me a little terrified as I walked off.
I saw a black vehicle, I wished it would take me back to where I was coming from and suddenly I saw the group of people in white go inside the vehicle as I walked pass them. I suddenly found a white cloth attached to my hands and I couldn’t get it off me, I noticed the white cloth got attached to the vehicle that was driving off then I pulled it off instantly.
I discovered that I began to elevate off the ground and I was being lifted up by the white cloth as I went into the sky at a very fast speed, this led me to close my eyes as the wind was too much. Although, I was moving at a fast speed, it was taking so long for me to get to where I was being taken, at that point I knew I was being taken to hell, I was terrified as I pleaded not to be taken there.
I got to a big dark lifeless hole, which I knew was the entrance to hell. My spirit instantly felt down and troubled as I was going down of this big wide space, I realised I couldn’t open my eyes for too long as the demonic spirits I saw were horrific.
As I was still traveling down, I suddenly felt my skin burning as I went down further and when this was happening I couldn’t help but scream continuously, and even then, I instantly lost my voice. I begged continuously to be taken out of there and God answered as I found myself back in my bed. This experience left me shaking as I felt the burn when I woke up.
This experience took me back to the scripture I read before I slept and it definitely helped me identify what the “Gulf” was, which explained the distance that separated the heaven and hell.
The wake-up call
For some time, I have noticed that I have been struggling regarding my dedication to the Most High. I can’t really put a finger on why or how it all began, but one thing I will say is never give up on yourself.
What does that mean? When we stop doing the things that please the Almighty, we are giving up on ourselves. Don’t forget we need him, he doesn’t need us.
Although it says in Ephesians 2-10: “For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.” We also have free will to do what we desire, remember we can be replaced at any time if we’re not willing.
My journey with God has taught me to exercise patience and always remain in Faith. God won’t give you what you want unless you need it and that is at the appointed time. Habakkuk 2:3 reads: “For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.”
I’ve always wanted God to bless me with something and it got to a stage that I began acting spoilt about it. It got to a point that I lost hope and wasn’t bothered to even pursue my journey as I would before, my life became a complete joke but one thing to remember is “God cannot be mocked.”
After understanding this, I began to ask myself, was I only going after Christ because of what I wanted or because I love him? God knows us very well as he made us, he wants us to put him above every other thing. He is the giver of all, and if we love him above everything else, what we want would not be a big deal to us, if anything it will only be a token for us.
An angel spoke to be saying, the heavenly host had a deliberation about me and came to the conclusion that I wasn’t fit for the Kingdom of God. This gave me a wake up call, I now remembered how I began my journey with Christ and it saddens me how I’ve lost focus on my purpose in life, probably because of the things I wanted from God. it is easy to fall, but what you do after you fall is what will bring the change in your Growth in Christ. Keep you eyes on him.