From last year to this new year things are not going my way, anything i do does not prosper i keep getting into problem upon problem. I feel i have a demon cause i masturbate and i feel the powers of darkness are manipulating my life. Honestly i need spiritual help cause i want a change in my life.
To the amazingly brave person who reached out to even speak in such honesty I commend you and I say congratulations. The devil can only play with what is in darkness and as you’ve reached out for help the heavens shall surely lift you up. If it is okay with you I shall respond to this in two sections.
Dearest child of God,
To everything there is a time and a season. Even what we deem as bad or a lack of prosperity. I know it personally. 2016 seemed to be a similar kind of year for me. I felt hopeless. Lost. Broken. Stressed and strained. Nothing was working. I spent most of my time crying. And so I understand. I completely understand where you’re coming from and I’m telling you- you Will come out of it. I don’t know what ‘it’ is so I can’t speak for you but in 2016 my ‘it’ was financial struggles. I was sick with stress and I saw a relationship that I’d clung to break down before my very eyes.
People were asking me questions. Mocking me at times but it was only for the season. Brother or sister- I promise you. Nothing is wasted with God. He takes our pain and what we see as mess to makes a message out of it. God is near to the Broken hearted (Psalm 34:18). It was in that season of pain that I learnt to know God as my Comforter. As you surrender your pain to God, in due season He shall turn around your circumstances. God has not forgotten you. He’s using your story for His Glory.
The bible says in Psalm 126:5- Those who sow with tears
will reap with songs of joy.
6 Those who go out weeping,
carrying seed to sow,
will return with songs of joy,
carrying sheaves with them.
And the first verse of the passage says ‘ When the Lord restored the fortunes of[a] Zion,’.Notice that the scripture does not say ‘if’- it says ‘when’. That means laipe lai jina – sooner or later your story shall surely turn around.
I cannot tell you how long it will take for this new season of laughter to arise but when it does, you will be ‘like those who dreamed’. They that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength(Isaiah 4:31). Believe me weeping may endure for the night but joy cometh in the morning!
Masturbation and needing spiritual help
I feel I have demon cause I masturbate and I feel the powers of darkness are manipulating my life. Honestly I need spiritual help cause I want a change.
I was there. For 7 years I was a porn addict and it was a seed I was exposed to. I would masturbate as a distraction from the struggles in my life. I would read erotic books and look for love in the wrong places but GOD delivered me and He shall Surely deliver you too. I tell you not because I’m proud of the sin but I’m proud of God’s victory.
Dearest person you are Not alone in this struggle and nor are you the first person apart from myself that has gone through it. There are many men and women whom are esteemed in the ministry and work of God that have struggled with this. So how do we overcome?
By taking the noose off our heads. Sexual sin is as strong as any other addictive sin and it has foundations. Learn and understand what yours are. Talk to God about them. Even though the LORD delivered me of it’s addictive pull almost 7 years ago, along the lines I have seen myself slip here and there and at first I would feel condemned and broken yet that’s exactly what the devil wanted!
Often times we allow our sin to become an idol but that is not what God desires from us! That’s the devil’s work. He drags us into a pool of condemnation, but God lifts us up! God convicts us of our sin and when He speaks to our spirit He gives us power to overcome. Figure out what often leads you to masturbate- Is it hunger? Tiredness? Stress? Talk to God about it. When I find myself feeling overwhelmed and overworked sometimes the desire comes to release and old habits creep up. When caught on time the appropriate action is to pray and praise God. Sometimes the feeling leaves after 5 minutes. Other times it’s after an hour. Either way. You fight. And God sees our hearts if you find yourself falling into that sin and it caught you off guard even whilst in the act- ask for help. Sing a song of praise. It makes no sense but it lessens the enemies hold over you. Nothing can pierce through to the heavens like praise. The faithful kind.
Another thing to do is to guide the gates to your heart. I grew up listening to the likes of Beyonce and R. Kelly and musically yes they are gifted but what were they filling my spirit with? I would imagine ungodly acts whilst listening to their music or watching certain programmes. We are what we eat! That is why you must take note of what you’re watching, listening and speaking about. For every ungodly thing that you are strengthened right now to swap- replace it with a bible verse and songs of praise. Slowly but surely the Holy Spirit will take more space and journey deeper into the roots of your heart. You’ll find strength and the power to endure because His Love will overflow in you. No longer will you not commit certain acts because of guilt but because of a Love for the Father and an understanding about how great His Love is for you!
Pushing more into the discussion about your spiritual life- is there someone that you can talk to and pray with? Do you have a stable ministry that you’re a part of? Fellowship is so very empowering. This conversation in itself is fellowship and I believe it shall bring forth good fruit but as we grow we need support. A baby can not feed themselves when they are first born and there is no shame in that. If you do not have the above and no one to support you in gaining it, take a bold step of faith and message us so we can help you. I have shared my story with you so that you too can be encouraged and know you are not alone. We desire not to judge but for us all to be whole. This is why Christ came! To give us life more abundantly.
Whatever the case is we are praying for you and if it is possible for you to contact us or you just want more advice please email through our editorial page or straight to firstname.lastname@example.org.
Whoever you are. I promise it will get better. This season shall pass and just as I have shared my testimony with you so many others will be set free through your testimony.